You Make Me Feel Good.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

MIA @ 1:07 PM

haven't been blogging for days... but it's not because i've been busy studying.. in fact, i didn't study much at all. if you consider an hr a day serious revision for exams that are a week away, then yup, i studied. sometimes i can just laze around the whole day because i simply dread studying. it's dumb. i'm dumb. i should be working hard but i chose to let time pass.

okie. last friday darlie made me super upset. he broke my fragile heart.... hahah. joking. but he really made me feel very *wei3qu1* when he raised his voice at me. i was really nervous and scared and intimidated man... and i just cried in the car. yet i bought him a nice bedsheet for his new bed the next day. i'm so nice. he's so mean. 39 dollar bedsheet. *faint* but very comfy material. bedsheet as anniversary gift. very practical.. haa

met up with my dear PS on wednesday and we sat for 7 hours plus in west coast macs to study. best. study whole day also dunno what i was studying. where's my photographic memory in sec sch?!?!?!! i'm gonna look out for prospective boyfriends for my dear friend. muahahah

met up with kawan and dear last night. power coffee from the coffee club!! kept me super awake till 5.30am! watched apocalypto dvd. very nice. thought i couldn't stand the gross parts and screaming. i hate shows that TORTURES living things or at least the people inside looked like they're being tortured badly. that twitch in their faces. spare me please. but i actually watched the SAW series. with darlie as my *shield*. haha.

last night's secret mission was fun. haha YAY!! he was no longer fierce and anxious. so i had fun. thanks darlie. i will improve! just in case u guys are wondering what the mission is, it's nothing bad or sexual. hahahah. i feel weird typing this too.

*fingers crossed for my 3 pprs*

back to my revision~

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Dbl O @ 12:29 AM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

i'm happy @ 11:53 PM

i've put on lots of weight. but i'm happy. coz i get to eat my favourite food and dear can't bear to stop me at all. wahaha.

i've passed my advanced theory test this morning! one day of study. hahah. lucky me.

i know it's a little late. (okay some may consider it TOO LATE) i've just sent out my first proper job application. kinda like it. i have to translate doc into mandarin. tried helping ryan with a bit of his work that day and i thought it was quite nice. at least related to my course of study. :)

i hope they will call me!!

ermmm i know it's time for me to study. but it's hard........to get my butt cracking. hee. i'll try to study tmr.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

bbq, dbl O, school!! @ 11:45 PM

i used to be a girl without temper.

note the words "used to be"

who says i have no temper? i show it all now. bottling up is just not me.

those who say i'm a girl who seldom show temper. i suppose they do not know the real violet now.

well, here i confess. that's the really nasty side of me.

keep it short.

bbq last night was fun. bbq till i didn't feel like eating. saw just too many chicken wings.

dbl o was fun. post the pictures up when i get them from sam. got high but not as giddy as the past few times. but 4 hours of smoke and alcohol. i think my life has just been shortened by quite a bit.

talking about school work. i give up already. the SHIJI is as good as gone. ha. ppl are getting As and Bs while i'm stuck with C+ and D!! quite unbelievable. i have friends asking me what did i do. erm, i seriously dunno la. can't satisfy Mr Lao with my disgusting pieces of shit work. i thought they were junk too. so yup. gotta accept my first expected C+ from CH module. but... the more incredible stuff is this. i've got As and Bs for gen bio. erm so hopefully can get C+ = satisfactory (cos i S/Ued it.) and graduate smoothly .my other CH module. ahahha. all tut reports and main report. 5 in all. all A or A-. haha best. am i aiming for A then? erm i replied dear, "B+ can already". i admit i have no ambition man...

having no high aims and here i am, graduating soon from school. friday was my last school day. felt a little sad. haha. but at the same time happy. took pictures with my friends and teachers during this last week. shall post them up when i have the time.

THE END

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

@ 1:08 PM

well done!

violet, you seemed to have studied the wrong book for your japanese test yesterday. congratulations!

your oral is today and you have yet to practice anything!

you just checked your ivle and you see your first exam is 30th april. good for you. plenty of time to study. then you realize your 2nd and last exam falls on the same day, 2nd may. well done!

your advance theory is next wednesday and you do not know a single thing.

your notebook to be handed in on friday is not even half done. tell me how much do you love the thick, heavy, hard-to-comprehend and expensive SHIJI.... :)

violet chew, you're so dead.

someone, pray for me ya?

Saturday, April 07, 2007

yet another page written in our sweet memories @ 11:43 AM

it's just like a drama. i saw a few of her photos in the album, jokingly asked daryl to throw them away and he really threw the whole album away. don't think he will go jalan kayu and get it back larh hor? i know that might seem unreasonable but i was really glad when he threw it away. he threw away the past. i think i did it too when he showed me he was sincere. the girl too, was being nice to me when we talked through friendster messages. shan't elaborate further. but. i have decided to let it go.. well, i have to. cause i gave daryl a tight slap on thursday night. hahah..

and then. we went to enjoy ourselves. at east coast park last night. beach cabana. the place which i will tell my kids in the future. "that's where papa n mama met". because hor, i don't really wanna say west coast park macDonald's larh. haha.

bought new bikini last night too! ha. darlie chose the color. okie. pictures tell a thousand words. my apologies here if you feel uncomfortable after seeing the white foot/leg of daryl. hahah...

anyway, Daryl proposed to me last night. but! i rejected him. hahahah.. *evil*

happy birthday jeanie dear!! @ 11:25 AM

i tried to pretend i was alright that night. or did i actually feel alright. the same night i broke up with daryl. yet before that, i had fun with my dearest girl friends. we celebrated jeanie's birthday (belated) on 30th march 2007. nice talks. nice cakes. nice gathering. friends for life. you don't see them often. but they remain in your heart forever. you know what i mean?

we're gonna take more... @ 11:20 AM

my very first neo-print taken with d' on 23rd march 2007.

okies. cruise/genting trip in May.

Japan trip at the end of the year.

darlie shall pay.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

@ 1:55 PM

in times of need, friends are the ones who can give you advice and consolation.

and i realize i actually relate to guy friends better this time round. all who talked to me. except QY, are my guy friends.

sorta cleared the dark clouds above MY STUPID HEAD.

thanks to jos especially. he made me cheered up a fair bit. HEE :)

when i talked to him about daryl, i was very happy. and there he told me, i still love the fool. *a-ho!*

okay la. i think he's right. i shall heed his advice. give d' a tight slap and forgive him.

d' has agreed. but he said he wanna slap jos.

hahahahah

grant me the strength, o- all the lords and deities!

my status is a ? @ 11:40 AM

that wasn't a joke. many of you might have already guessed the outcome. but i am quite shocked myself, that we still can get back together. i was very weak and have decided somehow(either in my heart or mind la) to give up.

yups, we've patched back. still unstable. because i lost control again last night. he was beside me all the time. then he was talking to ryan on the phone just to let me hear and face the reality. (i was really pissed off. he knew i wasn't sleeping) try crying 7 nights consecutively. guess it helps in slimming down. i don't know what i want... maybe i know. but because i know it's gonna be difficult to achieve, i always feel like giving up. dear mr kawan being a kaypo (i know he's actually concerned. i hope) came to my house and he talked to me. i need to weigh things out. more happiness of more sadness?

i know daryl is a very nice boyfriend. he's already the nicest to me.

they're right. i can't give up the past. i'm trapped. i really have no idea when can i get out of this shit.

i'm weak. but you've always thought i'm a strong girl.

valuable lesson (to everyone out there, esp school kids who think they know what they're doing): be sensible. you never know what you are doing now may hurt someone dear to you in the future.